Kaleidoscope, I beg you

By Caress Genelle

you asked me to stay, told me to wait,and walked right on away.
promises. promises;I'd like to shatter you.
Everyday If a thought protrudes,I stab myself to the confusion of you;I have wounds.

I'd drown myself to the sorrowful tub of your heart

still, I am sick.But,there was beauty in trying.
Hazy smog of a man,a floating lingering gray;I can't think straight to replay.
Too many lies are entangled with too much truth. Though, morbidly, I wish to the roots that I died like the leaves in the winter.
Your pale ice covers me and steals the color from my flesh
your breathe,a dead ice, freezing my inner being.
because, it's everything to me. forgive me.

Denial is the soil in which you root your chasm of any existence.
you could have left, but I'd had beg a god to kill me at the sight of you and I making sense.

I'd burn you with the way I feel to your touch
I am dieing, yes.
The cause supplied by the beauty I felt in your kaleidoscope

I wish you never had let go while your hands diminish the breathe from my throat. I felt you.
Patches of plum on my flesh signal the marks that is you.
It is a dreadful misery to have hope.
I'm almost certain that you wanted the confusion to contain me
the thoughts, the lies, they do not distinguish any different than any truth.
But from the yellow bit of life which lies inside your eyes, I see you.
when I watched the passion leak in form of words, I begged you.
what contradictions of life;I don't believe you.

spinning on empty responses, I am becoming just as empty.
natural evil in the soil;I'd prefer to keep the fire.
I felt unfrozen though empty beds were screaming of what was stolen.